[ it's not like yamato has ever avoided dimitri, more like it has just not happened that they would really end up speaking outside of trials or very stupid public speaking events. so he is not seeking him out right now on purpose when he's walking out in the garden? especially after what happened yesterday with byleth, it feels like people closer to the man should be speaking to him. about actual important things.
but. well. they cross path and yamato kind of hesitates, for a second, before he asks, embarrassed: ]
Dimitri, do you... [ he halts a little ] Do you have any tricks? For getting used to... [ he gestures at his eye vaguely before shaking his head because actually he regrets opening his mouth ] Never mind.
[ what if he just escapes because obviously there are bigger priorities right now, dumbass??? ]
[ it's all right, because dimitri has basically avoided everyone, everywhere, for the last three weeks. he looks a little surprised that yamato would actually stop and speak to him, considering all that's happened, but he doesn't seem to mind it.
in fact, he looks like he's trying not to look amused and failing, holding an arm out to stop yamato from fleeing if he tries. ]
...It's all right. [ he gestures to yamato's eye. ] Does it hurt, still?
[ he fidgets a little before sticking his hands in his pockets, clearly feeling awkward, but does not try to flee again now that he has been stopped :T ]
... Yanagiya-san gave me painkillers. [ aka yes, but what he says is: ] So it's fine.
I'm not... [ WOW don't call him out like this immediately all he has left is regrets? he's immediately full of teen sulk ] Of course it hurts, it's still healing, but I'm handling it. I'm not trying to look tough.
Precisely. So you haven't lost it in its entirety. You can learn to use the relative space between things to gauge distance, and your remaining eye will begin to make up the difference as well.
Time. And practice. I recommend taking up a skill that helps you—I had to adjust quickly to be able to defend myself if someone came after my life.
[ but yamato could do like. a normal thing? maybe try racquetball? ]
...There is some emotional recovery as well. Realizing that one eye is doing the work for two, now. I cannot read or watch anything for very long before it starts to cause me strain. You will find things that were very simple are no longer so.
... Yeah. We got this bright red paper after our trip, and Taichi had to read it out loud to me. [ with a bit of a bitter twist to his mouth, because-- y'know. embarrassing! ] But it still does that to you even after...
About five years, yes. And probably for the rest of my days.
[ he doesn't feel any sort of willful pride, but it's still a permanent limitation. ]
...You should adjust so you don't need help, at least. And eyedrops can provide some relief. [ i don't know why eyedrops exist in fire emblem ] It may also remind you of the incident that caused you to lose your eye in the first place, but that particular wound heals differently. [ emotional trauma is a whole separate ordeal. ]
[ wow! he hates that! it's a good thing it's not emotionshare week so dimitri can't tell how much he hates that answer! ]
... That's fine, really. It's not like... anything in there was real. [ the wounds were, but it shouldn't bother him because how it happened wasn't. this is perfect logic do NOT question him ]
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but. well. they cross path and yamato kind of hesitates, for a second, before he asks, embarrassed: ]
Dimitri, do you... [ he halts a little ] Do you have any tricks? For getting used to... [ he gestures at his eye vaguely before shaking his head because actually he regrets opening his mouth ] Never mind.
[ what if he just escapes because obviously there are bigger priorities right now, dumbass??? ]
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in fact, he looks like he's trying not to look amused and failing, holding an arm out to stop yamato from fleeing if he tries. ]
...It's all right. [ he gestures to yamato's eye. ] Does it hurt, still?
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... Yanagiya-san gave me painkillers. [ aka yes, but what he says is: ] So it's fine.
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If you do not get the rest you need, you'll only damage your body more. We're basically strangers—there is no need to keep up appearances.
[ it's not like dimitri cares about how tough he is. ]
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What does that have to do with anything?
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[ he's really so young... ]
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[ so!!! there!!! also. yeah. he might be a mature 17 year old but he's still an idiot teen sorry dimitri ]
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[ hopefully. maybe. ]
So, you've probably been running into everything, hm?
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Not... everything.
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Just tables and doors, then?
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[ that is a yes ]
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[ just a thoughtless thing that your eyes do without effort. now that it does take effort, it's difficult. ]
But it is not all gone. You can still tell when one object is further than the other, can't you?
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[ because he's paying attention when he grabs it, not that he. y'know. notices. ]
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Precisely. So you haven't lost it in its entirety. You can learn to use the relative space between things to gauge distance, and your remaining eye will begin to make up the difference as well.
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So ... it'll take time, basically?
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[ but yamato could do like. a normal thing? maybe try racquetball? ]
...There is some emotional recovery as well. Realizing that one eye is doing the work for two, now. I cannot read or watch anything for very long before it starts to cause me strain. You will find things that were very simple are no longer so.
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[ however long it has been for dimitri ]
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[ he doesn't feel any sort of willful pride, but it's still a permanent limitation. ]
...You should adjust so you don't need help, at least. And eyedrops can provide some relief. [ i don't know why eyedrops exist in fire emblem ] It may also remind you of the incident that caused you to lose your eye in the first place, but that particular wound heals differently. [ emotional trauma is a whole separate ordeal. ]
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... That's fine, really. It's not like... anything in there was real. [ the wounds were, but it shouldn't bother him because how it happened wasn't. this is perfect logic do NOT question him ]
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Things that wound the heart are not literal injuries, but that makes them no less real than a cut or bruise.
[ he shouldn't deny himself that sort of pain. it isn't any less substantial. ]
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[ I'm answering this mobile but when I'm home it's over for Dimitri not getting a memshare ]
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he huffs quietly at that. ]
Well, that does seem the theme of the week.
[ suffering other people's memories and stories. ]
They feel remarkably real all the same... these memories.