[ ... for his part, yamato looks surprised and-- honestly a little embarrassed. it's been six years since that time, and while he'd never forget that moment, he's never talked about it with anyone else, either. not really. ]
... Ah, that's...
[ he's not sure what to say about it, to be honest ]
Yeah. But the truth was I wanted to prove it to myself. That I didn't need anyone, so it was fine that I was alone. [ he shrugs a shoulder lightly ] I didn't like myself much, either, so that didn't help my perception of things.
... It's a long and complicated story, but to put it in simple terms: she's fine.
[ So don't worry! ]
Things were... reset, you could say, to restore the world to how it used to be. In the process, my aunt and uncle never experienced the accident that killed them, and Koharu had her actual parents back. So the only one who has the memory of being her mother is just me.
I feel terrible, honestly. We're still close, but it also feels completely different. And the fact that I miss it is...
I'm glad my aunt and uncle are alive. I'm glad she has them.
But knowing that I either go back to an empty place every night or just sleep at work because there's no one waiting for me is so lonely that it almost physically hurts.
[ ... yamato hums a little, because there's really no solution to that. ]
... Part of the reason I was so lonely as a kid is that my dad works insane hours. So when it became the two of us after the divorce, it meant I spent most of that time on my own. It was... hard to get used to. [ it's part to say that he understands her loneliness, and partly; ] She might not be waiting there for you at home anymore, but she still loves you. You said so yourself. Whenever you feel lonely, you should try giving her a call, instead. I think she'd like that, even if you're the only one who remembers being her mom. You're still family.
Good. [ he smiles a little unaware of his unintentional guilt trip before he turns pensive again ] ... She might not remember, but you do. I think your feelings can still reach her despite that, even if she doesn't understand.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
... Ah, that's...
[ he's not sure what to say about it, to be honest ]
no subject
We don't have to discuss it. It looked rather personal.
no subject
[ it is personal, but that feels important to mention? ]
It was a long time ago, but... if it wasn't for that and Gabumon, I don't think I'd have ever...
[ he's not sure how to finish anyway. been able to start liking himself? haha ]
no subject
Sometimes, we need the support. We need others to tell us the things we can't see about ourselves.
no subject
no subject
no subject
no subject
[ Wow he was such a sad stringbean?? ]
... I don't think you think that way now, at least. And I'm glad for that.
no subject
You and me both, Yanagiya-san. ... It's not like all my problems were fixed then, but... having Gabumon and friends around helped.
no subject
[ But now it's her turn (until 1:03:06:13).
It's only fair, really. ]
no subject
Who's... Koharu? [ and then he grimaces, a little-- ] Sorry. I shouldn't pry when you didn't.
no subject
[ Though she says it in a much quieter voice now, gaze shifting off to the side. ]
Koharu is my... was my daughter. I adopted her about a year ago, when her parents were killed-- she's actually my cousin.
no subject
[ since. was. ]
no subject
[ So don't worry! ]
Things were... reset, you could say, to restore the world to how it used to be. In the process, my aunt and uncle never experienced the accident that killed them, and Koharu had her actual parents back. So the only one who has the memory of being her mother is just me.
no subject
[ there's something familiar for him there, but then again... it's very different, too. ]
It can't be easy to see her in those circumstances.
no subject
I feel terrible, honestly. We're still close, but it also feels completely different. And the fact that I miss it is...
I'm glad my aunt and uncle are alive. I'm glad she has them.
But knowing that I either go back to an empty place every night or just sleep at work because there's no one waiting for me is so lonely that it almost physically hurts.
no subject
... Part of the reason I was so lonely as a kid is that my dad works insane hours. So when it became the two of us after the divorce, it meant I spent most of that time on my own. It was... hard to get used to. [ it's part to say that he understands her loneliness, and partly; ] She might not be waiting there for you at home anymore, but she still loves you. You said so yourself. Whenever you feel lonely, you should try giving her a call, instead. I think she'd like that, even if you're the only one who remembers being her mom. You're still family.
no subject
But she takes a breath. ]
... When things calm down and I can reach her... I'll do my best. [ He has a point, after all. Koharu is still there, just in a different way. ]
no subject
no subject
[ Hopefully. ]
no subject
[ a beat ]
But it's up to you.
no subject
When things are a little less dangerous and service is properly restored... I'll give it a shot.
no subject
no subject
[ hahahaha... ]
Koharu used to try to sneak into the examination room to see me.
no subject
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)